July 08, 2006
The weather's a killer.
I just bit my cheeks.
And life still sucks yea.
My new handphone case is pretty.
Drools. Pretty shit!
That's about the only thing
that makes my day today.
How rare.
I shall post a pic of it if
my sis comes home early.
I'm so very sleepy(since the last post).
Didn't manage to sleep but went out
looking for vacuums.
For now, hello Magiclean(the useless one)!
I just finished a pair of earrings
for my mum. Custom made.
(But I find she has the worst sense
of fashion(or design in this case).
But since she insists on it and
intends to wear it out, go ahead.
Havn't spoken to ange for the longest
time. As compared to talking
everyday in secondary school.
Sometime I like the silence,
while at other times it's
painfully and frightfully agonizing.
Right now what I really need is noise,
so I won't feel that alone.
I've realised that..
the things I didn't seem to be scared of
suddenly becomes the things I'm fearful of.
Like insects, lizards, cockroaches.
I used to be scared of them,
but I'd still stomp my feet just for fun,
as long as it doesn't come in my direction.
Now I keep calling my mum to catch them
and throw them away when I see it.
Maybe not the fear but it just irks me
seeing them or going near them now.
But I'm still sure I'd be able to handle
them if I'm alone.
I hate it.
In about 5days, I'm going to wake up
to an empty house every day.
Not like it's not empty now.
But...
I just don't like it.
I should just pack my bags and go off too.
Somewhere far, with a one way ticket.
I'm so tired.
Hopefully I get to remain in this same
state when I go to bed.
-nIx- @ [[11:05 PM]]
The weather's a killer.
I just bit my cheeks.
And life still sucks yea.
My new handphone case is pretty.
Drools. Pretty shit!
That's about the only thing
that makes my day today.
How rare.
I shall post a pic of it if
my sis comes home early.
I'm so very sleepy(since the last post).
Didn't manage to sleep but went out
looking for vacuums.
For now, hello Magiclean(the useless one)!
I just finished a pair of earrings
for my mum. Custom made.
(But I find she has the worst sense
of fashion(or design in this case).
But since she insists on it and
intends to wear it out, go ahead.
Havn't spoken to ange for the longest
time. As compared to talking
everyday in secondary school.
Sometime I like the silence,
while at other times it's
painfully and frightfully agonizing.
Right now what I really need is noise,
so I won't feel that alone.
I've realised that..
the things I didn't seem to be scared of
suddenly becomes the things I'm fearful of.
Like insects, lizards, cockroaches.
I used to be scared of them,
but I'd still stomp my feet just for fun,
as long as it doesn't come in my direction.
Now I keep calling my mum to catch them
and throw them away when I see it.
Maybe not the fear but it just irks me
seeing them or going near them now.
But I'm still sure I'd be able to handle
them if I'm alone.
I hate it.
In about 5days, I'm going to wake up
to an empty house every day.
Not like it's not empty now.
But...
I just don't like it.
I should just pack my bags and go off too.
Somewhere far, with a one way ticket.
I'm so tired.
Hopefully I get to remain in this same
state when I go to bed.
-nIx- @ [[11:05 PM]]
